The search for clarity through a poem

There it is again.

That eerie feeling

Of uncertainty.

Unmistakable

Is its approach,

Crouched in the mind,

Its home.

If I may speak freely

For a moment:

I have a desire to

Serve my

Spiritual master.

There is no lie

In this statement.

In this

My heart and intellect

Correlate.

Even though

The above mentioned truth

Has been spoken,

Still

I am yet to

Embrace

One pointedness

In purpose,

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Still my aim wavers,

My target blurs.

This poem

Therefore

Focuses on

Revealing,

Through the tool

Of introspection,

The source

Of this uncertainty,
Thereby invigorating my ability
To overcome it.

Firstly,

I honestly believe

In the process of

Bhakti yoga,

And the word process

In itself

Implies

A work in progress.

Now,

Here is where

Uncertainty

Enters the scene:

Conditioned life

For millions of births

Has taken its toll.

Henceforth

The feeling of doubt

Of ability and purpose.

Henceforth

The need to second guess decisions made,

The idea of perfection on one’s own accord,

The fear of failure due to misplaced surrender,

Thus culminating

In this feeling of

Uncertainty.

However,
Know

That Krishna is there in

The heart.

The spiritual master

Has our best welfare

In mind,

“Had you forgotten this?”

Know

That we need only act,

In honesty,

And preserver,

Thus manifesting

Humility

Through the need for surrendering

To the process.

Know
That we are not the doers.

We are the receivers of will

To fulfill the purpose

Of rightful actions

Based on true position.

In conclusion,

There is shelter to be found

In these statements.

Uncertainty lives only

As a perverted reflection

Of the humility

Exemplified

In the devotees of the Lord.

Uncertainty

Is considering

The material situation.

Surrendering to the reality

Of a work in progress,

Blessed by a divine descent

In the form of spiritual truths,

Is its

Elimination.

 “Those who are on this path

Are resolute in purpose,

And their aim is one.”

All that remains

Is to cultivate

Acceptance

Of free wills’ responsibility

And make the choice

Again

And again.